It’s been a while since I posted. My last post was about a month and a half ago. I’d say life got in the way but that is an excuse. A very big excuse. To be honest, I have had a lot of self-doubts. Not just weight loss and exercise but with hobbies and what I want to do with my life. I have always been a person that wants instant gratification. Nothing in my life had given me that lately.
That just causes me to give up. I keep doing that and for every step I take forward, I take three steps back when the doubts are so strong. I give up eating correctly then go back. It’s an evil cycle that I don’t know how to break other than take it one day at a time.
I feel bad because I have seriously slacked off with my exercising. If I say waking up at 4:30 am is hard, it’s just an excuse. Ultimately, if it is important to me, I would make the time and do what I need to do to make it work. I would get up and I would go to the gym. In the last month and a half, I think I have worked out maybe 10 times. This is quite different than my 4-5 days a week.
Sadly, I feel bad. I feel bad because this is something that makes me feel good but yet it’s something again I quit. I have to stop this cycle. I have to keep going even if it is slow. Any progress is still progress.